Getting off to a bad start already

Only I could have an unlucky as start to the New Year. My day was going very well until I received some disturbing news about something. I have hope and faith in the idea that things will change. This can't happen to me now I have come to far in this quest for happiness. I can not come back home to the pain that I left here with years ago. I want everlasting happiness not temporary.

Missing the honey

Not like I don't all the time but I
am seriously missing Mostafa. Wow to
think I have not actually seen him in
the flesh in going on five months is
hard to stand.
Guess this will make things better when
we finally see each other again-whenever
in the world that will be but I guess as they
say, "Absence makes the heart grow fonder".
We have missed so much important time together.
I wasn't there for him when his mum passed. We
didn't spend any holidays together. Saturday is
his birthday and yes I will miss our first year
together on the 25th of January. I am really wanting to
be back in the UK and settled with him by Valentine's Day.
Inshallah

Having a Calgon moment

Okay it's been almost two weeks now since I posted my application. Hoping to hear something very soon even though I know it takes about 5-6 weeks to process. I need to get out of here as soon as possible. Something to save my sanity. I'm starting to feel more damned and doomed than ever. Having a serious Calgon moment right about now.

Another meaningless day

So it's that time of year again--Christmas Eve! Thank goodness the day is almost here and even better when it is over! Not exactly my holiday to celebrate anymore.
Sure the season smells good and beautifully decorated but enough already!

Getting fit

I am gradually trying to get back into a routine fitness workout on a daily basis. I really need to shed about 20 lbs and tighten up. I think my abs are at the flabbiest they have every been and I hate a waist with a passion!
It's not the easiest thing to do with the holidays just a few days away. By this time next month I need a damn near perfect ass, great thighs, a nice rack and nice arms. I truly need to stick to this plan and follow a healthy diet in the new year and especially if I want to get pregnant and have a healthy baby. Inshallah I can do it!

Back 2 the House

Back from my two week holiday in North and South Texas. The first part was out in Plano at the lil' bro's house. Had a great time hangin' out w/ the SIL and my little pooh bear nephew (love ya lots). Did some shopping and eating out in a few cool places.
Too bad the Buffalo Ex***** stint was not such a success. Think I will have to start back at zero-Ebay! Better luck next time. :-(
Found a few cool tops in the shops.
After a few days there I headed down to what I thought would be an exciting week in San Antonio. It was just okay. Too far out and the company was not much company. Did a lot of shopping and taking care of lastminute headache errands. Still trying to decide should I go with San Antonio (UTSA) or Dallas (UT Richardson). Only time will tell.
After that 12 hour train ride I am feeling so knackered.

The past few days and the week ahead

Have enjoyed the past few days visiting with family here in the Plano area. Thank goodness it feels great to be away from the country after all these months. Got the chance to do some shopping too. Well just a tad bit. Got in my goodies from Bath and Body Works, a few awesome pieces on the cheap from Macy's Juniors and some very cute lacy tops from bebe.
Too bad the Buffalo Exchange do was not such a success. Shit--only $8 and some change for my stuff. Back to Ebay. Don't think I will be trying that place again.

Grant has cried and laughed alot. Bless. He's getting to be such a really big boy. I hope his surgery is a success on Friday.

Off down South to San Antonio in the morning. This will be a very busy and exciting week to come. Hopefully with fingers crossed my ordeal will come true.

Peace xxx

Holiday in a fortnight!

I am sooooo more than ready to move on outta here. The past three months have been something else. Not as bad as I expected but how much boredom in one place can one take.
Thank goodness I got my tickets booked for Dallas and San Antonio nextweek. That gives me almost two weeks away. Not that I will be able to do much but at least I can go some place where the scenary is much different.